Two months later

Writing these posts have given me the chance to not just feel but also see the emotional roller coaster I've been going through. I will say it has been extremely therapeutic getting these feelings out instead of bottling them up. That used to be how I dealt with my pain or anger, it would eat me up inside and I'd feel so weighed down tired all the time holding onto unecessary baggae. This process is helping me get it out, throw it away and not take ownership of this hurt. To understand that I am worthy of real love and I am capable of giving it to someone who is worthy. Right now, I'm working on me and healing these scars and loving me again. The one thing I can say I learned from my breakup, learning to trust my instincts 100% and make moves when things don't feel right. To be mindful of the red flags when they come up and not just see them as just quirks. To finally get that I can't heal or fix someone who is broken, it's not my job to do so. That a person must be happy and or love themselves and be minus drama, also have his own home (no more living with his mom guys, nope). The right man who wants my love must bring equal or more to the table; that's a standard I will never again lower.